I apologize.
My baby turned 13 yesterday. The last of 5 teens I've had the privilege of borrowing from Heavenly Father to teach, enlighten, and guide through this earthly life.
Life with Gavin has been different. As an older mother, I had more patience. I am more flexible. I am a better communicator. My older children probably think he is just "one spoilt brat!" The truth is, I am different. I am a much better mother with him than I was with them. And I am sorry for that. I am sorry that with my older children, I was young and quite stupid at times. So many times, I wish I could go back and do things differently. Unfortunately, that is not an option. But, really, if I had done things different, I might not have this to prize:
But today, I have another teenager. I want to do this right. I want to teach Gavin to be kind to all he meets. I want Gavin to appreciate the good in everyone. I want Gavin to love life and to live every minute fully. He is such an incredible kid; full of happiness and vivacity. He has truly been a very special gift from God. I hope that, in my mothering, I never smother or diminish his spirit.
Gavin is my person.
Deb, you are so right. Sometimes I watch my daughter and son-in-law with their little girls and I want to say, "You know what? This isn't worth getting uptight about. It will pass"!!! :-) I know that if I had a child at home still I would be so different in so many ways! I'm glad you have Gavin in your old age (just kidding!!!). Seriously, I think you are extremely lucky to have him. Hugs and love... and KEEP BLOGGING!!!!! - Dori -
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